so this is gonna sound stupid, but whatever.

so one of my roommates was raised in las vegas.
she lived there, grew up there, went to school there.
that's where her life was.
las vegas.


it's not that i'm in awe of las vegas, but i guess-
i guess, i just realized that las vegas is more than a strip.
it's more than just casinos, bars, and a place where 21+ people go.
it's more than just a city to gamble.
and a strip of bright lights where people make poor decisions.


it's also a place where people live, grow up and go to school.
this shouldn't astound me like it has-
but it does.


and i hadn't planned on thinking about it for this long,
but the idea won't leave my mind.

my roommate grew up in las vegas.
that's home to her.
is this weird to anyone else but me?



but then i think about myself.
i see the mall of america as a "home" to me.
that's probably weird to some.
but it's a place in where i feel comfortable.
it's a place in where i know where i am, and i know where things are at.

and i guess that's what a home is-
a place you feel at ease, and of comfort?

can't believe i haven't been on in over a month,

but i guess i can blame that on tumblr, right?

anyways, i was in the shower thinking about stuff.
i kept on thinking about times in high school.
like this one time when i got up early to shower before school, but then i fell asleep in the shower.. assumed it had only been a few minutes, til after i had blow dried my hair and realized it had been for a good two hours.
so then i just skipped school that day and got yelled at by my dad.
this got me thinking about all of the times i used to skip school.
and i never really had a reason, i was just lazy and would skip.
each skip came with a new excuse too, or a new lie.
i would lie about it every time.. whether it was a new illness, my own mental health, not enough sleep, whatever.
it was always something.

i got to thinking though about how those days are over.
now when i skip school, i don't have to tell anyone or report to anyone about it.
if i skip now, it's all on me.
i'm only hurting myself, and my own money.
i'm only in the lose now.
my times of play and games are over.
and in this aspect, i'm getting older.
and things aren't as fun looking as they once were.

i don't know.