lip ring, i love mine.

Yep.

Hebrews.

"Be satisfied with what you have. For God has said, 'I will never leave you, I will never abandon you." -Hebrews 13:5

GOD'S LOVE IS DEEP.
GOD'S LOVE IS REAL.
IT'S TRUE.
I FEEL LIKE A FAKE.
BUT I KNOW HE'S THERE.
I KNOW HE LOVES ME.

He knows I'm hurt.
He knows I'm lost.
He knows I can't worship anymore without crying.
He knows I want Him SO DAMN BAD.

But I don't know who I am; I don't know where I'm at. I don't know where I'm going. I'm surrounded by lousy influences - parents included, it seems. But I feel like I'm doing my damnedest to figure shit out.
BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I WANT TO FUCKING DO, IS FIGURE MY SHIT OUT.
I don't want to be hurt, lost, broken, hungry or fucked.
I JUST WANT TO BE CLEANSED AND FILLED.
Filled with His love.
His most outreaching love.
His love that is saving the world one soul at a time.



"Let's take our place outside with Jesus, no longer pouring out the sacrificial blood of animals but pouring out sacrificial praises from our lips to God in Jesus' name." -Hebrews 13:15

God knew you were going to be messy.

"You're gonna feel dirty and you're gonna feel awkward.
And that's why He loves us."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FzbK2A5BN1I&feature=player_embedded

^this video.
I can't get sick of it.

scavenger hunt

last friday night; this was our group +one more person.
guy in the blue and gray? he's cute.


just sayin.

since college has started,

i haven't been online much. and to be honest, i never thought college would be this much fun every single day. i knew i'd love it. i didn't knew i love it this much. i didn't know i'd get so lucky with room/suite mates, but i'm sure thankful i did. i'm having a blast, constantly. it's been the best and it hasn't even been a week yet.

:D

took a visit

on the ol Myspace today.
i found a picture from the most disappointing day of my life.
only three years ago; i'm over it.
and that's all i'm going to say about that.

8.6.11

i'm going to miss them so much and they don't even know.

your tears come from inside.

i feel sadfacey tonight.
all these sad stories are too much.
and at the same time, i like knowing i can still feel.
sometimes i go awhile.
i go for awhile in the set where nothing matters.
the official dgaf mode, so have you.
and you just forget for a bit that you do have feelings.
and that feelings are real.

i'm not crying tonight, but a part of me wishes i was.
because i know my insides are broken up and shaken.




it could all just be my lack of sleep though.

it's august again.

and a week from right now, i'll be in arizona.
arizona won't be vacation.
it'll become home.





estaticity. not a word, but i'm using it anyway.