?????????????

how much bullshit were you full of?
are you excited to be gone soon?
do you ever think of me?
and not just me as a person, just how i am and what i'm up to, and ever think to ask? probably not.
i try not to think of you either, but it happens sometimes.
i'm just not as strong as you, i don't think.
did you ever lie to me?
not in this past year though, because i know that's consisted of lies..
i'm talking about like in 08 or 09?
i don't even know what i'm talking about.
i shouldn't be talking about this.
i'm just sad tonight. and lonely.
and i'm fighting every urge in my body to not text you.
but it's only 2:06am right now.
i'm just hoping i'll make it til morning.
i still think of you.
i wish i knew you did the same.
or i just wish you'd tell me something to make me feel better one way or another-
tell me we're done for good and know for certain,
or tell me that it could happen when you're done doing what you're going to do.
i just need to know something.
but that something- i cannot post here.
maybe you'll eye this, know it's about you and text me.
i'd like that.
:<


i wasn't this emotional before i met you.
and that, i know for certain.