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second- name one thing in your life you hope you never have to see or encounter.

i'd like to say i'll never have to see any of these four die, but i know that having your parents die in a child's lifetime is just the natural cycle of life. so that leaves us with the three, the most three important boys in my life. i pray to god nothing bad ever happens to any of them.

i've been thinking about them a lot lately. i'm away in college now and they're still there. i think about what the usual day back home is like. and they're back in school now. nathan is in high school this year. in fact, today was his second day in public school, ever. and it's weird to me, but it makes me happy. he's growing up, whether i still see him as an annoying ten year old or not.

and austin and tanner are my life. they're really growing up. and it's the most unfamiliar thing to me. but then i look at myself and realize that, hey, so am i. i'm in college. and i just never thought this is what it'd feel like. because i look in the mirror and feel the same way i did four years ago.

but it's life.
my brothers are my life.
and i hope i never have to see them leave me.