i've always looked at it and seeing that she won. she got the house, the kids. she wasn't the one making monthly payments. she got remarried first, she bought a nice brand new house. she had the new cars and the dog, and the one who could just buy stuff when she went places.
but you know, i think i've been wrong all this time. i truly think that he won instead. sure, he didn't win in the courts. he didn't get his kids, or the house that was just as much his, but he's always been there. he was able to get past that rut in his life and i think he did a damn good job of it.
he and i haven't always agreed on everything and in fact, financially, we don't agree on anything. but that's the difference- when it's he and i, we argue and argue, but it always just results in different life options and choices. but when she and i fight and argue, it always has to be who's right and who's wrong. i'm not saying these arguments and their results have anything to do with who i respect more, but i am saying that i've begun to respect him a lot more than i really ever have.
he didn't have a lot, but with what he's had, he's sure done a lot with. he's not the greatest role model in many ways, but he doesn't admit that he is. he's just who he is and taking his traits isn't something i see as offensive.
and she maybe has wronged me many times for many different reasons, but i like to think that tomorrow can always change that. i agree that we're all human and we all fuck up a lot, but i also believe in forgiveness.
and much more than that, i believe in the power of prayer. i believe that things will change, that things will get better than where they're at. i believe that i will grow to respect he and she both- quite equally.
(mom and dad, i love you both.)
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